The weather here these days are very nice, sunny and warm, sky is blue, trees are turning to green, beautiful flowers are everywhere. In China, April is a nice month for travel.
But I don’t have mood for sightseeing and emotionally don’t feel that good. My father is very ill, he got lung cancer and it is already reached to the terminal stages, I am now in the hospital sitting beside his bed accompany him and write this article.
There is no single room in this hospital, so in my father’s room, there are two patients, and both of them got cancer. The other guy got carcinomaofrectum.
Since the day that doctor announced the disease that my father got 7 months ago, the family fall into the grief especially my mother, and she is much attached to my father.
It was very shock news for everybody in the family because in his entire life, my father was a healthy, active and strong man and he rarely got sick even in the winter season, but now he becomes a totally different person. I feel very sad.
The cancer is spreading fast, it makes him very weak, he can’t walk properly, beside lost lots of weight, he also can’t eat much, every time after ate little things, he will omit. To support the body needs, everyday, the doctor has to give sufficient amount of nutrition through injection to his body. Alhamdulliah, so far he hasn’t felt any pain.
Because the cancer spreads so aggressively, there are fluid build-up around his tummy (not in his lung), which caused him feel full all the time, but the fact is he feels hungry and want to eat. To make him comfortable, from time to time, doctor has to drain the fluid.
He has gone through for Chemo 4 times, but his heath got weaker and weaker after each treatment, all of his hairs were gone and his body becomes smaller and smaller, he even can’t talk that much due to lack of strength.
Look at my father rest on bed; all I can do is to make dua for him. May Allah has mercy and shower HIS blessing upon him, don’t let him in pain, grand him the strength and let he be able to eat, don’t omit and don’t let him suffer, amen.
Think about it, when a human is born, the arrow of death actually is released simultaneously. This arrow searches for the human throughout his life. In one instance, the search is over, the arrow of death finds its companion, and the human dies.
By saying it, I remembered there are verses in the Quran that reminding humanity of their destiny:
“Every soul shall have a taste of death: And only on the Day of Judgment shall you be paid your full recompense. Only he who is saved far from the Fire and admitted to the Garden will have attained the object (of Life): For the life of this world is but goods and chattels of deception.” (Surah 3:185)
“It is Allah that takes the souls (of men) at death; and those that die not (He takes) during their sleep: those on whom He has passed the decree of death, He keeps back (from returning to life), but the rest He sends (to their bodies) for a term appointed verily in this are Signs for those who reflect.” (Surah 39:42)
“When their specified time arrives, they cannot delay it for a single hour nor can they bring it forward,” (Surah 16:61)
Update: Two month later, my father passed away, it was on 24 June 2013 at 21:30 🙁